Thanksgiving - So much to be thankful for

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and we have so much to be thankful for. Korbin is doing absolutely wonderful. He is 7 months old now and weighs 14 lbs 14ozs. He is thriving and developing right on track for his adjusted age which is nearing 5 months old. He is getting up on all fours and rocking and is able to get just about anywhere he needs to go although it does take a little time. He always has a smile for us and thinks just about everything is funny. He is such a joy.

We are still watching his progress with his fisted hands and his foot that has excess tone. His legs also have a bit more tone than normal which may prevent him from chewing on and playing with his feet but that is pretty small in the grand scheme of things. The OT and I discussed again the likelyhood of him being diagnosed with CP since he is a bit older now. What she told me wasn't really surprising. She believes that he will be diagnosed with at least a mild CP since he just hasn't let go of the excess tone. We have noticed him compensating for his fisted hands by grabbing things like his bottle with his fists. So far though, it seems like the worst case scenario is him needing AFO's or braces on his foot and possibly splints on his hands at night. If that is all we will need then I wm okay with that.

I realized tonight how raw I still am about the trauma of his birth. A song on the radio touched a nerve tonight and made me see that I am still not "over" his almost tragic birth. I still think about it regularly and thank God daily for giving him to me and allowing him to stay with me but I guess I didn't realize that there was a part of me that was still very emotional about it. After my mini breakdown I found myself wondering when if ever that part of me will begin to heal and be less painful. That also got me thinking. Do I really want it to go away? It is part of who I am now and it is part of Korbin although he will never remember it. I think that maybe that "raw" part of me is what reminds me how blessed we are and how good, powerful and almighty God is. No, I don't like crying when a song comes on the radio or when I see a baby born too early on television or even when someone I know has a baby too early but I think that this may be my testament. Although I don't know what God's plan was or is for that matter but I wonder if that is why he gave me Korbin and chose to let my little angel stay with us: so that Korbin and I could be a testament and show the world his power.

I guess with the holidays quickly approaching and this year quickly passing us by I have been doing some soul searching. Again, I feel that I can't thank everyone enough but thank you all for your continuing prayers for my family and my little warrior, God's warrior.

Sabrina

Take that Dr. Gloom!!!

Well, just a quick update. There has been a good deal of progress since we came home from New Orleans. Korbin is now 6.5 months old, 4.5 months adjusted and weighs 13 lbs 11 ozs and is 24 1/4 inches long. He has started rolling over and is all over the place. He also decided today that he was tired of just sitting there and decided to start trying to crawl. He has been doing wonderfully on his milestones and is just growing more and more everyday.